| This post is just full of rant and babble, so just go away and save yourself from wasting a few minutes of your precious time.
What you don’t know about me is that I am the most anti-social person. I am also the most silent person in the whole world. And to make it worse, I am also the shyest person. That’s just me. It’s a fact.
I hate meeting people or going to family/school gathering because I have to talk. I don’t like sharing myself with people.
What’s pissing me off is my dad. His word is a slap to me. He always says “You don’t have any exposure. You won’t amount to anything. You won’t achieve anything.” It hurts me because he condemns me of being what I am. I believe that being quiet and passive as a characteristic of person is also in genes (like some cases of homosexuality, inborn talents, etc.) I am born as a quiet person. That’s just me. Why can’t he see that? No comforting words. No encouragement.
He doesn’t even help. He criticizes everything I say and do, I’d rather not talk or do anything. He compares me to talkative, sociable people, and those with leadership qualities. What does he want me to be? Join beauty contests, be a party person, be a community events organizer, be everything that I am not?! Also, if they wanted me to be a people-person they should have enrolled me in a classes or bring me in situations that develop confidence and talents, when I was still a child. They should have let me let me join summer camps or ballet lessons, etcetera. A parent should not expect an attitude/value in a child if they did not consistently taught and practiced it.
And look who’s talking! He isn’t even friends with my mom’s sisters. He doesn’t talk to them. His relationship with people is just limited to his drinking buddies he meets about twice or thrice a year and just lot of conceited talks (what he’s achieved blah blah blah). I don’t have a healthy and open-communication relationship with my dad. You don’t have to say it. I already know it.
I hate people who say I’m quiet or I’m like this or I’m like that. You don’t have to say to people something that they already know because THEY KNOW IT ALREADY! You don’t have to rub it in. Don’t tell someone that they are like this or like that as if they can’t be anything else.
Hahaha…I told you I will rant.
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Life is so cruel to me. The phone calls I’ve been waiting aren’t coming.
Prayers are still unanswered. I have waited for too long. I’ve done all my part. I don’t know if I still have something to give. | 
